Insert heavy sigh here.
What is it with women and pictures anyway?
One of my first interactions with Growing Generations (well over a year ago now) resulted in my asking if a surrogate ever failed to be matched. I was told yes, one. She was heavy and IPs didn't like her looks. This is adding to my stress over choosing a portrait for my portfolio big time. Then I'm told this is the FIRST thing the IPs will see of me. Not my well crafted letter to them. But this one image. And what if they don't like it?
Most of you know I've been dieting. I've lost about 15 pounds, and I'm halfway to my 30 pound goal. I think I look pretty darn good right now, and in 5 pounds I'll be smaller than my husband has ever known me. Smaller than my wedding day. And so 10 pounds after that I'll be a supermodel.
Insert BMI test. I need to lose 25 more pounds just to be in the "healthy" range. Let me tell you, me minus 25 more pounds is not what I would consider healthy. I think I'd look fragile and like I need a sammich. I'm athletic, and I don't think I have another 25 pounds of fat TO lose, even if I wanted to. I have no intention of losing another 25 pounds. So I sure hope the IPs are not waiting on an "ideal" BMI Mandy. I'll never match.
I snapped a few shots this morning, and I must admit, I see the difference in my 15 pound weight loss already.
For Facebook, I think these shots are pretty great. But for a first impression shot to my IPs? I'm just not satisfied.
Leads me to wonder, will I ever be satisfied? Should I just snag one and go with it? Should I hire a pro to snap a headshot? (I think that stinks of trying to hard, and I won't do it.... but the fact that I'm even considering it...)