This blog has nothing to do with surrogacy. But as I do think of other things, I think it's appropriate to share these thoughts on my blog as well.
Everyone of us had received a regift. You know, that item no one wants so it keeps getting passed from person to person? The giver hopes that the recipient wasn't the one to give the item to them in the first place, and the recipient accepts the gift with a wide eyed smile that says, "Crap, what am I going to do with THIS?"
The idea that God can give us "re-gifts" has been on my heart and soul a lot over the past few days. My prayer life has been pretty focused on some friends from Chris and I's past who are dealing with the birth of a child who has some serious medical needs. I am also praying for our Worship Minister who is furthering his call by taking a trip to South East Asia to help in the fight against Human Trafficking. Seems to me these are three people who are dealing with God's fruitcake... seeing first hand the gifts no one wants to receive.
I am a strong believer that God does everything on purpose and with purpose. It's no accident that Adam Young has the soft heart of a child, yet has been called to witness some of the most heartbreaking acts one human can do to another. It's no accident that God is asking Jill and Josh Robinson to be shining examples of faith in the face of impossible odds, when they minister to young people who often feel as though the odds are stacked against them.
Perhaps my favorite verse in the bible is found in 1Corinthians 10-13 ".12 So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! 13 No temptation[c] has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted[d] beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[e] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." I chose to interpret this verse less literally than it probably should be taken. As an over achiever I often feel impossible odds and great stress, and a temptation to give up. I call on this verse often to remember that God will never fill my plate with more tasks than I can balance and will never ask me to do anything He knows I am not able to do.
Perhaps we should all take a shine to this faithfulness when it comes to interpreting and feeling grateful for God's fruitcake. Even the gifts we wish he'd kept for someone else are given on purpose and with purpose. No doubt in my mind that God has already used Josh, Jill, and baby Judah to reach the lives and touch the hearts of hundreds. No doubt God will use Adam's soft spirit to provide comfort to women and children and give them a peace and love they may not have ever had the chance to know before. And who better to deliver it to them than one of God's soft hearted servants?
In the end, I hope I can learn to be grateful for all gifts God gives me. I hope I can learn to stop seeing some things as gifts while seeing other things as obstacles or challenges.